I will not quit..I will not give up..

HOLIDAY!

2006-10-17T20:56:00.000-07:00

Yea yea.. managed to get off on thurs which means i get 5 off days. SO HAPPY!! tho i know it will end real soon, but ill jus take this time off to rest. =)

Nothing really much happening.. been eating alot since its my mums birthday celebration on sat! all the satay, pork chop, fried rice and chicken is killing me~! my waist is expanding by the miles! BUT IM HAPPY! =)))

Then yday had seafood “不肥” buffet ... *不肥才怪~!* haha then the food not really nice.. all the waste are stuck in my body n i feel soooo bloated!

oh wells, moving on.. my cousin has a thing for mahjong nowadays.. dunno why but i guess too much of it kills?? no?? hes not betting big but i believe as this goes on, someday he will jus bet real big and probably lose big.. DUDE.. play easy yea~

Cheers to all around.. happy hari raya puasa and deepavali!

Pay Day!

2006-10-09T00:17:00.000-07:00

Its another 2 days to my pay day.. cant wait for it.. but i know when it comes, it ll be gone in like another week haha.. so yea~ oh well, at least it would be a good one week.. hehe

Im glad im focus now... gotta do my duties in like keeping fit, practising my singing n composing... so busy man!! =) but its good..i dun wanna lose out to anyone n lest to disappoint myself.. =) yup!!! so add oil.. my album is scheduled to be out in nov! watch out~

Whats happening!

2006-10-01T21:56:00.000-07:00

Whats happening you ask? hehe What a great topic to start... lets see.....................

Alot of happenings..M5 concepts has accepted me as their artiste and personally, ive also accepted them as my company... so things are moving better now.. alot more peace n stability..
tho. BE A STAR competition produced many great singers too.. im jus glad that im given the chance to have an album..

In nov, ill be having a duet compilation EP and sometime earli nex yr, ill be having an EP on my own.. =) hope it all goes well... and as to my other life, IMF took up alot of me.. really drained and down coz the working hours were torturing... but now that its over, im hAPPY! and i get my much needed rest.. =)

stay tune for more.. =)

so many things... flustered yet it doesnt excite me.. sigh

2006-09-02T23:20:00.000-07:00

many things have happened...

Im moving to a new condo.. *after onli 2 years.. which i must say is really fast.. i feel so unexcited*

A company is interested in having me as their artiste.. * yet nothing much have really happened.. i so wish to keep practising n practising...i wanna play my music...*

IMF is coming and alot of my time would ba wasted.. *I am kinda lookin forward to it actually.. kinda acts like a camp for me..*

Im going hack to gymin again.. * I cant really lose the fats on me.. so i might as well jus tone it.. haha

well, above is jus the events thats happening to me now.. but in honest truth.. i feel kinda empty.. i wanna be happy bout my future.. but yet nothing seems assured.
when i was in LWSSOM n PG, tho. i wasnt assured a contract or an album, i feel useful there n that i enjoyed my time.. i enjoy the company, i enjoy the work, i enjoy the environment...
but now its stopped, i feel a sense of lost... sigh~

My dog seems to be a trouble to my family too n i am so frustrated coz i do wanna take care of him myself....but my NS and my work doesnt allow me to.. at least not everyday...

life is at a stand still... what can i do...
God pls guide me..

What goes up, must come down..

2006-08-15T21:51:00.000-07:00

Why is it that life is such a screwed up rollercoaster ride??
After a bad patch and when things begin to look brighter, why must a sudden storm come and shadow my vision...

Another big "Shit" is headed towards me and i dunno if this might even be bigger than the last... this might jus be the biggest challenge yet...

And many thanks to those out there who poured care n concern on me regarding my probs..thanks alot! =)

killed 3 times

2006-08-04T07:42:00.000-07:00

I jus downed four cans of Heineken.. neva drank so much in my entire life..
but life sucks at the moment...so i dun really care..
she said 3 sentences that would have made me kill myself 3 times..

i dun wanna sleep...

2006-08-03T11:50:00.000-07:00

i wanna sing ktv.. i wanna sing till my heart comes out and my guts bleed..
i wanna sing till the glasses break and mic falls apart..
i wanna sing...
i wanna sing...

i feel so bottled up inside...
n yet i dun feel like talkin to anyone...
not even myself...

Empty Heart

2006-08-03T11:45:00.000-07:00

My heart is empty..
devoid of all emotions.. n yet filled with negative ones..
I feel like a barrel slowly losing water... im losing my senses n my touch..
Im losing whats dear to me in my heart...
worst of all, i might even lose myself..

i hate my life at this moment...

many might find it reasonable...
creating history with a badminton victory in my unit..
working well in my duties...
doing fine in the performing group...
given ample opportunities to lead a happy and stable life...

i hate myself for not doing what i preach..
i hate myself for not standing against the waves..
i hate myself for being oblivious and in my own world..
n mostly i hate myself for being myself...

i hate me...

空洞心

2006-08-03T11:37:00.000-07:00

空洞心

我心中的痛有谁了解
我心中的哀有谁明白
难道爱要这么放
才能让彼此更快乐无伤

没有你在，我无法谅解
没有你陪，我更加狼狈
所剩的感觉就这样
消失不见

副歌：

没有了爱情的空洞心
失去了自我的自信性
没有办法在撑下去
只好崔头让时间过去

Expectations..

2006-07-22T22:08:00.000-07:00

A few questions : "What expectations do i have? and what expectations do you have?"
"Isnt it funny how things are not always what u expect them to be? "

So... is it good to expect things or not? Hmmm.....

Oh well, that aside, many things happened to me recently besides the bad weather affecting my health... emotionally ive been going thru quite a lot of things... n sometimes, u jus wish u can give up n forget everything?? but then again, there are many things ahead that seems so exciting that i dun wanna give up... hmm.. ultimately, the future is very enticing for me... n yet, i always mess myself of with mistakes n errors...

I've been letting my family down with bad attitude and its time i do something right...

The day before...

2006-07-16T21:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a night filled with forgettable n unforgettable stuff...

Digital Design 2006 was a event that i believe would be a smashing hit, filled with huge crowds and great music... and i tot LWS PG would have another great time performing...
But boy was i wrong....

The sound system screwed up, the mics were unstable, the weather was hot (not their prob tho. haha) and the crowd was sparse to none... even tho it was an event held right smack in the middle of taka!!! *Oh my gosh can..*

sigh~ but as professionals, LWS PG have to continue performing.. and at the end of the whole event.. i left with a smile... coz i've learnt something.. or prob, ive learnt alot..

what makes a team work? U need people to lead *ala Connie*, People to coordinate *ala De Ming* and people to work as a team. *ala the rest of ppl in PG* .. and we must all be like a family.... which was something tat i felt yesterday....

Connie was her usual *mummy-self* and De ming was a great help back stage working things out with the sound men.. that was really important.. and the rest of the performers were great in not giving up and still performing... kudos to all of u... I never tot the importance of family in LWS PG was that important till yesterday...

nex, i learnt what was singing all about... really much more than technicalities, i learnt what singing was about when Connie was on stage.... nvm the fact she cried and many had the puizzled look on their faces... i totally understood what singing was about when i saw her perform.... if anything, i would have cried myself if i was ever... ever so able to absorb myself into a song like her....
she sang a song where the words hit her hard.. n the song meant something... while im always worried about singing pitch-perfect and performing a song... To be a real musician, u must be able to be in one with the music.. n fully understand what u r singing... as they call it, u must FEEL FOR THE SONG.... \kudos to Connie mummy too...

and so as it is, ive learnt all this valuable stuff yesterday despite what i would call as an "unsuccessful" event... hahaha.. to many more performances man.. =)

The good and the bad Part 2

2006-06-25T21:19:00.000-07:00

Its amazing how life is so full of surprises.... pleasant ones and the not-so-pleasant ones..

Jus had the new PG meeting last fri and the turnout was pretty good.. the numbers are promising and the new guys seem to be pretty enthu about it.. positive start nonetheless and im hoping this same group stays on for the year... The pleasant surprise was that i was made section leader of the male performers and its a good responsiblity.. will definately do my best and be a good role model. =) on top of that, i believe there are gonna be many more performances coming up and im glad the senior PG members are suddenly stepping up and saying " 我要唱这个，我要唱那个。。” its good its good! i believe the PG members are suddenly becoming superstars in their own rights...

But the not-so-pleasant things aobut life now is that im down the past few days with a supposed bronchitis infection that makes me cough like a 124324 year old man and that i cannot sing!! worst of all is i cannot sing... and thus, with the performances coming up, i had better recover in time.... i have till fri!! = i went to the doc and the doc even said i might be down with asthma.....
oh man!! *am i gonna die????*

whatever it is, im jus glad things are fallin into place once again.. add oil!! =)

The Good and the Bad..

2006-06-22T20:31:00.000-07:00

Good: Yea ive gotten into the PG of Lee Wei Song and im gonna have a very very fun time in there i believe...aside from that, i believe theres gonna be more exciting things happening so im really lookin forward...

I also managed to get my hands on some music minus one so i can sing loh!!! Tank's songs are really hot at the moment... =)

Bad: Im down with a stupid cough that brews hot and cold... i believe its coz of my over consumption of cold drinks that make me feel so awful and i cant stop coughing... worst still, i got a performance TONIGHT!!! (Yes tonight.. how?)
and if i dun recover in time, i might jus screw it up! haha... die die die...
*Drowns himself in cough medicine*

Lets jus see how life goes yea?????????????????????????????? keep u guys updated!

Bad Morning!

2006-06-14T17:54:00.000-07:00

What a bad morning for me.. some idiot prank called me and asked me what i wan when he called me first... what an irritant! Dont ppl have things to do in the morning.. like brush his damn bloody smelly breath.....basketball! #$%^)

okay.. aside from that, the morning isnt that bad lah.. its 852am and i slept at 2 last nite... still feelin refreshed so no grouchy mood~ hahah =Pp

yday had a long awaited with my buddy, Teresa, my one and only platonic buddish femal fren.. haha.. we use to meet once every half a year for the past 6 years... and we are the kind that, despite not meetin so long, will not feel awkward or paiseh and can say everything to each other.. shes like gettin married soon (shes 21) haha coz she has found her prince charming for 3 1/2 years... very happy for her.. the first fren of mine whom i believe has found the RIGHT one for her...

however, im beginning to feel a drift b/w buddy and i...maybe coz of our growth and our different paths, words seem to be lesser and fun seems to dwindle...nothing feels the same anymore...
as always, the way of life..... u move on when things move on too.....

Ole Ole Ole!!

2006-06-10T22:29:00.000-07:00

World Cup is here.. yea~ im not much a soccer fan but well, the world's greatest stage is set for a month of enjoyment and excitement... i believe, for this month, its a month where men (and probabbly some women) find meaning in life again.. hahah.. they have something to look forward to.. =)

And i stayed up from 11 to 5am at cine with my PMU mates jus to watch the games ... its pretty cool to watch at Cine.... level 9.. wanna join us can.. haha..

Anyways, talking about the previous day.. fRI.. which is my LWS performing group day.. i guess i wasnt mentally ready for some emotional roller coaster hearing the feelings and even dreams of some members in LWS PG...its such talks that make a group bond together... and its a pity this group might be changed... =( but thats the harshness of life.... u always move on...

Im sure the LWS group will only get better and better and im hoping to see one fine day when all the members in the PG grow up to be what dreams they dream themselves to be.. and not what their parents, or frenz have in mind for them.... im living my dream now... i wanna live it till i die.. and for my parents......

Anyways, all the best to everyone for the auditions... add oil!!

Composing Class

2006-06-05T21:59:00.000-07:00

Yes finally.. i have taken my first step into creating my own music professionally.. knowing whats what in making a song.. haha cant wait to have my first own full-length song...

Composing class was fun with Hideaki... his super nice lah.. i feel so rogue beside his gentlemenliness... hahha.. but his first assignment for me is playing 枫 and its pretty cool!! Jus need more practise and i can sing and play... yea! (Big smile)..

Then sang and sang with the little gals of LWS PG.. namely Jovi, Joann, Shi Min and Dom came but didnt sing... then jus sing JAY and LEE HOM songs... they were like gushing all the way...
and im like.. -_- David tao still the best hahahhaha

Okay lah.. now gotta prepare a few songs for performances and for auditions too.. wish me all the luck!!!

NS life...

2006-06-04T21:04:00.000-07:00

They all say that NS is the phase where boys become men.. and wussies become boys...
Its pretty true to a certain degree... Coz NS requires you to step up and shape up....
However, if u choose to *Keng* and be a slacker in NS.. then i believe life would be very difficult during NS...

Im glad that my vocation gives me ample rest, pays reasonably and allows me to be on the move all the while... Tho. walking in a train and train stations do not exactly fit what i call the BEST vocation... im glad its schedule gives me time to pursue my goals... =) so no complains...

But alittle on my job... Police MRT Unit officers are not so retarded as it sounds... ppl might see no need for us...esp those MRT workers who seem to find us a pest as we borrow their premises......
but our responsibility is really something huge... in the shape of prevention against Terrorism.... We dun really want to arrest people for minor offences and we most definately do not wanna see people commiting suicide by jumping on to train tracks................ we jus wanna provide a better environment and safe life for all members in Singapore......

So that is our main job... =)

Glad with life

2006-06-03T10:21:00.000-07:00

Hey all.. as my title says, im really glad with the way my life is going now...

My goal and aim in life is slowly becoming a reality... and as i still say, whether or not it happens, it doesnt matter.. what matters most is that i have a clear direction in life and i know its where my future lies...... whether my career lies in being a performer or being a muscian, i am jus glad my direction is gettin clearer by the day~

LWSSOM has been kind to me... and even tho it hasnt come cheap, i only can thank my mum for having faith in me to pursue my goal... *love my mum lots* and im really thankful with the mates and teachers in there.. the rest is up to me to work my ass off.. =) i can do it...

today jus had a performance with the PG of LWSSOM.. at Cheshire Home for the old and handicap... i stupidly asked the crowd to stand up and sing when i know they are wheel chaired bound... OH MAN.. how GOONDU can i get..... =( but then its an honest mistake and im glad things didnt get too offensive.. haha

Overall, the performance was quite cool and the crowd was pretty okay... most imptly, i see the courage and kindness in LWS PG peps when they helped out and even feed the peps there.. so touching.... *tears*... at the end of the day, im jus happy my performance didnt screw up, the ppl enjoyed it.. n LWS has done another kind deed... hahah.. =)

Cant wait for the future

Back to normal life

2006-05-12T10:38:00.000-07:00

Hey peps.. yes doggone long since i last blog but hey~ ive been busy with my PTI (Physical Training Instructor)course for the past 3 weeks and its quite like hell... been under sun, run with heavy sandbags, run with lOG, do push ups and endless exercises... sigh~ its been tough but when i return to my unit, i feel a sense of pride coz i know i have conquered my own fears and achieve something great... hmm feels good to be the only PTI in my unit.. im an asset not a liability.. haha..

=) but on a sadder note, i jus went for LWS performing Group today and i must say, i sang pretty badly.. especially the duet part... why why i neva go learn.. hmmm must start bucking up le.. 3 weeks made me lose touch with my musical touch.. but ive gotta be back... be better and more confident.. =) i must do that.. haha...

oh ya, im also having bball frenlies soon... if anibody wanna watch.. jus come dwn lah.. will confirm timing again.. =) thanks peps for tuning in!

LWS open house

2006-04-13T09:51:00.000-07:00

Hey all! those interested to go to lee wei song skool of music open house on sat and sun 15 n 16 april... come about 12 on sat and 130 on sun!

No need to book unless u wanna go for the workshop.. which is already full.. but 12 pm on sat still available.. call the skool! =)

So anyways, juz inform ya im going to perform a duet ba.so if u guys wanna find out more about the skool or jus chill out.. come by LEE WEI SONG SKOOL OF MUSIC! =)

thank u!

Ahhhh~

2006-04-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

Jus realised i've been writing this more often than i always do for my own journal~ die!!
Been keeping record of my life every single day in a book and lately, ive been skipping my entries everyday~ sigh~~ time to start writing again..

But anyways, lately been practising "Shan Hu Hai" for Lee wei song skool of music opening house.. hope to get the gig and perform~ love that song.. and besides that, nothing really much happening~

Got alot of ppls birthday coming soon.. OH MY GOSH~ im broke and im broke and im broke.... SEE how broke am i???? !!!
haha but yes, i will still have to get them presents.. =) so yea~ lets jus see how lah..

then then then.. nothing to add..tata~

BREAK!!!

2006-04-01T21:18:00.000-08:00

Took a days off from my work today.. which means im off for five days! =) goodie~

Then hor, nothin really much to update except i've gone back to LEE WEI SONG Performing Group and i really really hope to make something out of it.. Dun wanna lose out to any of them haha but learn from each other.. =) then they were learning this dance from WIlber Pang... tot it was quite easy and catchy... and saw iris at there looking lah! haha but it was cool.. =)

Then hor, nothin really much lah... jus slack and relax loh.. and hor, jus slowly growing fatter loh.. and hor, ....... err nothing else lah.. tata~

Nokia 7370!

2006-03-27T19:22:00.000-08:00

Jus got a NOkia 7370 from the $100 voucher m1 gave me... Its a pretty cool phone.. but know what, it screwed up after jus 3 days of use and i had to queue up 1+hr jus to get it fixed...Then now, after 2 days, its still in good shape... but God knows when its gonna screw up again hahahah..

Been to a chalet and back and boy were there lotsa people... had to run to my dear sec fren, Elroy's chalet for his 21st bday and back to my Team Tanglin chalet... all in all, had lotsa fun... brings me back to my childhood days when each chalet would mean mindless games and pointless fun!! =)

Been to wild wild wet for the first time too.. Its pretty enjoyable.. limited rides but the people that u go with sets to tone as to how fun it will get.... Enjoyed the 6-men float best and the wave.. but being a weekend, its super crowded...

Then back to work again and each day, as with evey other day, seems to drag on... but then again, what more can i ask for.. im contented!

Lastly, Jazz classes are lotsa fun... but being the only guy in an all gals dance class, its kinda "weird"... thank god the teacher is male.. if not, ill probably stick to Hip HOp or something...

Small kids...

2006-03-04T23:11:00.000-08:00

Haiyo... kids nowadays ah.. really troublesome lah...
Jus recently on duty, there were 2 young malay boys in their 14's... caught vandalising the walls of the parapet near woodlands station...
RIGHT UNDER OUR NOSES in broad day light.. whats up with these kids???? sigh..
Then took the ah pek in me to give them a lecture and tell them wake up their idea and not be soooo goondu in future...
Sigh~

Then aniways, for ya info, its not an offence to take fotos of the train tracks or station ... but then, if some kaypo sees u and calls the police, u might jus see me coz i would have to attend to u.. n see if ya pics are incriminating material haha...

SIGH~
busy busy.....

Then got a day to rest and spend time with my doggie... =) happy happy!!!!

Back to work

2006-02-25T23:06:00.000-08:00

Heyo.. after 5 off days.. finally went back to work yesterday.. it was kinda boring.. but nonetheless, quite refreshing lah.. past 5 days seem to drift by so fast.. not actually knowing what i did exactly........

Aniways, been feeling kinda sick lately too.. on and off fever on top of flu and what not.. so kinda tired and lethargic.... then got a few minor probs here and there.... oh well, life is kinda on a low now.... thats probably why goin back to work is quite a refreshing break..... then the people at work are quite nice.. The senior-est guy in my PMU jus had his last shift yesterday and they powdered him and splahsed him jus after shift.. lotsa fun haha..

Then there was a young lady that approached me for a foto while i was in my PMU uniform.. a pity i had to reject the foto coz i cant take fotos in my uniform.. for security purpose.. thats why!
SO oh well..... if this lady ever reads it, sorry yea.. BUt it feels good to have someone recognising u for a foto.. that kinda made my day... =)

Then back to basketball and im feeling good.. lacking in fitness but still loving the game.. haha... thats all!!

Regular Updating!

2006-02-22T19:53:00.000-08:00

Okay guys.. i know my blog was rotting.. but ill promise to update this as much as i can!! okay??? *audience says OKAY!!*

haha was feeling alittle sala lately.. feeling feverish and fluish added with slight headache... then alton is down with diarrhea...and his poo keeps dripping out.. sigh!! but hes feeling better... as the days go by.. =)

Then last mon was basketball training again and i was feeling sickly b4 bball.. but once got on court, i had e urge to play.. despite being bare footed.. haha.. it was nice.. i guess the reason why i was sick was coz of the lack in exercise.. =) Team Tanglin way to go!!..

Being back for vocal classes at LWSSOM, i feel pretty happy coz im learning alot more from the individual classes and its been superb.. learning alot about my flaws and learning how to improve on the spot.. great great...jus that its harder to learn harmonizing.. but im sure as time goes by, within the nex 5 years, ill be as best as i can.. actually its about another 4 years and 10 mths...

I so wanna sing k!! haha but ill be singing pretty weirdly coz i wanna correct my errors haha... so if ya sing with me and find me weird, pls understand its jus correctin my error haha...

Happy belated vday, chinese new year, xmas and every other occasions that i've missed. =)

Back to Basics

2006-02-20T19:07:00.000-08:00

hey peps.. i've lost count of the number of years i've stopped writing.. probably close to 4521425 years.. but now im back to fill in the scoop of my life thus far...

posted to SPF and then to the POLICE MRT UNIT... life is pretty good and fulfilling.. im taking up individual vocal classes by great teachers in JJ and Wei Qiang.. followed by dance classes at attitude... learning alittle salsa, hip hop and jazz... its been great.. all in which to pursue a goal...

And to be honest, whether or not i make it, it doesnt matter.. coz im enjoyin the art of performing.. Be it using the voice or my body.. its a beautiful way of expression... much nicer than words and words alone...

Then got a doggie named ALTON.. *NOT ELTON...and dun call him gay damn it..*
Cavalier King Charles Spainal... been the love and trouble of my life for the past 5 months.. but lookin at him lie on the floor and follow u around, u cant help but forget all the other probs..

Hmm, superstar has taken a back seat for me... its a phase that is passing quick and recently, i had an interview with TP for their DND..." whats it like being in Superstar".....

I tot about it.......................

3 months of joy, sadness, challenge and excitement fill my mind.. its hard to say in like 1 min whats it like being in superstar... overall, its unforgettable.......=)

and life after superstar for me is jus to keep on moving and moving and not lookin back .. till the time is ripe and i gotta go... =)

Gotta appreciate my parents more too...and the many people around me.. thanks again..=)

With regards to previous post...

2005-09-22T02:13:00.000-07:00

Hey yo~ I jus realised a handful of people out there seems intrigued by the love topic.. interesting~

Love is just an aspect of life that makes one feel happy, sad, loved, neglected...If u have it, you are fortunate... If u dun, so be it. =)

Focusing on the concert is the priority now and then going into police NS.. That is my life, that is my path... for now!Then when im out, *sounds like going to jail*haha, after 2 years, ill follow my dream as i've planned within the next 5 years. =)

Just for info, concert preparation is quite intense and packed but everything is worth it.. considering we are performing to a crowd who are sincere in watching the best out of us.. and with that, we will be giving our best to u guys... yup~ lets do it and do it well~

What is Love to you?

2005-09-16T23:37:00.000-07:00

Love has always been an intriguing topic to me...
On love, there is NO definate answer and definately no definate meaning...

I loved my baby rabbit before i gave him away.. coz i couldnt take care of him due to my schedule...
I still do care for him.. but not as much.. thus, i guess i love him alittle...

I loved a gal for a short 3 weeks b4... but she turned a cold shoulder and our chemistry jus faded away... Is this love?

I love my family for everything that they are to me....for the quarrels, the laughters, the joy and the pain.... This is LOVE...

I love my frens who drifted away from me since superstar... i still do care.. but due to my schedule, im unable to meet up.. can u guys understand?

hmm... superstar made me appear on tv... but besides that, i've lost quite alot of things... hopefully one fine day, im able to pick myself up and ride in to the sunset....

.. and i dunno how the future would hold for me.. let alone us...

Updates

2005-09-16T23:19:00.000-07:00

Hey hey.. back at this blog writing about all the things that has happened since the last blog entry .. which was more than a month ago... =) how time flies.~

Where to begin i also dunno.. but ever since the last entry.. i've been thru some roller coaster experience.. in my passion, in my career, in my future, in my love life and in my family life.. dunno how to begin.............................................

sept 1st was a night to remember.. performing on stage to a masssive crowd of 8000, hearing fans scream ur name and seeing people giving u applause.. what more can u ask for???? Thankful for my family and supporters alike for being there... and tho. i believe the upcoming 30th might be much lesser hype, im glad to be part of it and gonna give it my best.. =)

I've also been at a crossroad.... my love life and career seems to be at loggerheads... the path that lies ahead of me... makes a committed relationship impossible for me... i've chosen to take the career path and make my dream come true... having a stable career would make me a much more passionate and committed lover in future...

Im just hoping the hopes and promises that i've been given this past few weeks would be reality..coz if they do, then i know my life was worth living... I worry for my future, but im willing to take that stab in the dark.. and hopefully make a meal out of it and not commit murder...........* read: this is a metaphor.. not literally hor.. i dun wan be hanged*.... hahaha

Then 11 oct is my police Enlistment date... to be honest, im kinda happy to be there.. coz at least i know i will have more time for other events unlike in army.. but then again, im not so sure... ill just leave everything to God.. hope that he will make it worthwhile..

Aniways, Haven had the chance to meet up with many people besides RBL.. but im glad they are still pretty much the same, except much more mellow.. and less happening as before.. which is a surprise considering our age... but yup~ time has caught up on us to a certain degree... hopefully life would not be a 9-5 dead end job for us.... working for money is worst than commiting suicide... i work for happiness and for meaning..

I've been tryin to write songs too.. about the things that has happened lately, hopefully some day u guys can hear it...

hmmm what more to add? Im not sure actually.. but all i can say is this.. " i wish everyone reading this to be happy.. coz thats the one thing im searching for now.. "

screwed up performance, missed opportunity

2005-08-01T00:23:00.000-07:00

2 days back was my lee wei song skool of music talent quest.. and i totally screwed up my songs.. a quick no. n a slow song.. i messed both up by forgetting the lyrics and going off pitch.. WHY? sigh.. why do i do things so badly? i was eagerly waiting my chance while going on stage.. never felt so confident about something.. but on the platform, i just lost it.. AGAIN!
why?

i feel so useless.. given the number of opportunities.. n the experience.. i still make a mess of things... why?? its no time for excuses now and i must continue working harder.. i still have alot that i need to do...

no R&B songs for me.. and more basics... practice practice practice....

2005-07-18T23:38:00.000-07:00

Life is full of UPS n DOWNS..

And every DOWN in life...

Is to help you appreciate the UPS in it...

Updates

2005-07-18T23:23:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since ive blogged and as many would have known by now, im outta project superstar... Which is good and bad...

Bad coz my dreams have been temporary dashed but Good coz this competition began to wane on me and even other contestants as it progressed. The end result does not matter anymore. Its always about the process and what u can learn from it....

For myself, the one thing i learnt is that " If you do not Follow ur heart, Ur heart will not follow u"... abstract?? Well, if you do not go after ur dreams thats established in ur heart, ur life would be meaningless...lifeless...

But aniways, after the elimination, ive kept in close contacts with the other superstars and its amazing to see how popular they are rising up to be... jus like in Singapore Idol, im suprised to see fans mobbing the contestants like there is no tomorrow... and how some ppl would be disappointed when they do not see them or things like that... DUN BE YEA? u will get to see them still...

aniways, moving on to the present.. ive got my deferment and im currently pursuing my music direction and heading it head on... talked to Gui Ming lao shi and he said, " how badly do u wan it?" and i tot to myself " Is it bad enough that im willing to sacrifice everything to be what i wan to be?".... YES I DO! i wanna be a successful musician and write music, listen to my own arrangement and express myself thru the beautiful form of art called music~

Thats what i wanna become.. and if i wan it, ill go full steam ahead and do it...
dun tell me about my future... dun tell me about stability... if i dun go all out for it now, i may neva get the chance to fulfill my dreams...

2005-06-21T04:43:00.000-07:00

zai tai shang..wo zhi nen shuo wo jing li le...

this statement had a monumentous repercussion on me.. n because of it, my feelings went amok n depression settled in...

i feel like im misunderstood..and that ive given up...

I HAVE NOT!!!

if anithing, i wanted to let myself know that i performed on stage with the most serious n true performance on stage..it was not slip shoddy..i really wanted to perform n do my best...
but nervousness, self confidence and preparation got the better of me.. n i lost my head..

if anithing, i could have jus killed myself on stage....

but not one to regret what i do.. this is my learning curve.. my stepping stone.. ill move on higher n further.. in the greatest way that i can...coz i believe in me...

The confidence in me would give u the confidence of me...

wazzup

2005-06-21T04:32:00.000-07:00

wow..its almost a month since i last blogged..still recall how excited i was about making it into top 24... the many nice ppl that i got to know n bond with... the many experiences of singing n performing that i know..n even gettin the feel of realising my dreams ever so closely..my gosh..its so true yet unbelieveable...

im not one to be ambitious..but the distant that ive been, and t he support given to me, i know i have a future in this.. and i can make it.. if i want too.. and this mean sacrificing many things.. frenz.. family.. time.. n money...

alas, my q finals performance was abysmal.. jus like when i play bball frenlies.. i neva live up to my standard.. which is sad.. n to tink that my performance will be shown on national tv..how scary is that?? many others around have told me to not give up n do my best.. n in so saying, i know i can face up to all challenges now and not falter n crumble in fear or pressure..

sure they can sing.. but i know i can too..

regardless of my results... im hearten to know i can fully invest my time n effort into my dream n goal.. my passion n my destiny.. my life..

bcoz of this comp..i ve made many frenz.. but i seem to have lost a few too... those whom ive neglected... im sorry..but u r not forgotten.. rem that..

If you ask me the life of a "superstar".. i would say its pretty amazing... abeit stressful and tiring.. the experience is amazing.. if anything, this is e best stepping stone one could have into the entertainment n music industry... also, the many different facades one sees can be quite scary... so u gotta be on alert most of the times..yup! i guess im jus one to live n let die...

HaPpEnInGs

2005-05-23T20:45:00.000-07:00

heyo~ many happenings recently...namely the preparation to the project superstar show..many briefings n meetings on matters pertaining to the competition...... one of the more exciting periods in my life... but been pretty stressed out and lethargic..dunno why also~ haha..

then yday played bball frenly against AVION..n as requested by liuXin..im gonna blog down the score..
RBL 77- AVION 60..... RBL played well enough to get the victory but AVION gave us a run for our money... considering we had so many ppl to their 6... i would say we didnt do that well.... but as always, our last quarter has always been our best quarter....

individually, credit goes out to Andy, James, Liuxin, Darren, Donovan, Shawn and Jared for their unity and matured attitude towards a bball game... a game where the opposition had a motor stuck to their mouth ...we played like how real gentleman's play....Quiet and yet Determined... proud of them..

but for that game, i registered my lowest ever scoring game..coming up 1/1000 shots..making 2 points n missing a million hahah~ that was bad...stamina was drained and was feeling off.... but consolation is the fact that many others in the team carried on the burden and me being part coach jus makes it all worth while...maybe can be full time coach le..=)

well done RBL..nex time..less thrash n register a 100 point game against AVION..

Updates again!

2005-05-16T21:13:00.000-07:00

=) its been quite sometime since i last blogged man..and as usual more stuff to update... and so far its all pretty good stuff..except probably for one lah...
the bad stuff is... the BMG vocal audition that was promised to me by that gayish sponsor...didnt realise...couldnt contact him and there was no reply...so there was no vocal audition IN THE END!! which means, the one thing that i have been sooooo looking forward to, has not be realised... *sigh*...so disappointing..but oh so expected... ( i knew that guy wont be so nice..)

But bad stuff aside, the good stuff is... I GOT INTO THE TOP 24 for PROJECT SUPERSTAR!! yea!! thats like way surpassing what i expected... n now that im in, im realli gonna experience the trials n tribulations of howlife would be like...if i wanna be a performer.....this would be the biggest experience hahaha...yea~

But there were more bad news after getting in....i was told that i would have to drop out coz of my NS..i need to enlist in 8 july..which means i cannot go thru the comp ALL THE WAy..thus, i must drop out......but.........determined to stay on in this once in a lifetime chance, my parents n i went to CMPB in the wee hours and negotiated...and YES!!!! i managed to get a deferment... n mediacorp is willing to help me out too~~ so its the BEST!

at least i know my dreams and my goals didnt come to a premature end... =) AMEN! and yes, im blessed with such parents and frenz... without them, im realli jus nothing...* felt really bad when i kinda scolded my dad over some matter* sigh.. im such an idiot..

but alls well..n now, im jus gonna take my chances and be patient as i move on in the competition... experience this and at least i know once in my life.... i fulfilled that dream... =)

Belated Bday!

2005-04-27T22:37:00.000-07:00

heyo... it was my bday 2 days back...and it is memorable...as usual ...tho. this time there wasnt much of a celebration....but its still fun~~

In the late afternn of 26april...i went down to jia yan's place for her mum's wake....hmm deeply sadden by the event but im glad to see that my xiao mei mei is hanging in there n being strong.. really proud of her~ * xiao mei mei...if there is anything you need..rem i told u le..jus ask me or dreamers yea...*

then went to have a nice dinner at crystal jade with dad bro james...n onli then did i head out to enjoy... however, the turn out is pretty bad lah..everyones busy n onli james n i going to sing kTV.. haha got to jio kenneth too...which is super sporting lah~ haha *thanks guys*... one thing i learn...: thats what true frenz n buddies are like lah.... at least being there when the need arises...really appreciate the fact that james realli chiong together...haha thanks dude...

then ms chen also came, to my surprise n got me a small cake..which is realli sweet... thanks angel!

yup..this year's bday is less crowded and happening...but as with ppl say, its not about what you do but who you spend it with..... spending it with 2 other guys is not that bad actualli hahaha....
It would have been realli nice to spend it with my "special someone".... but then again... like how james say..." oh skilled....dun talk about it liao lah..its OVER" hahahaha.....what great word of advice.....

see how lah dude...see a year from now...if we still got animore stories to share hahaha...

then lastly, i got into the 2nd round of the competition..see how much further i will progress...

Its Coming!!!

2005-04-22T23:06:00.000-07:00

another hour and i would be headed to my audition liao...wish me luck eh... go there peng peng yun qi... see whats my standard like haha... then will check back with my results tonight..stay tuned.....

Angels Brought Me Here

2005-04-22T08:47:00.000-07:00

super nice song...heard it quite sometime back..but finally got the song... haha its amazing how a voice can produce such nice sound...

Aniways, moving on to my life during the past few days since i last blogged...hmmm to say everything is peaceful...that would be a lie... but at least i can feel that im moving on with lesser pain and hurt as the days go on...

The phuket trip....AHHhhh! hahah 4 nites of MaSSage...ShoppINg and TanniNG!!!... im as black as charcoal now...but feel as relaxed as rebonded hair haha *wat an analogy*...
and i bought quite alot of stuff...kinda treated it as my bday presents hahaa...not too bad eh?? haha.... then spent time pourin out my heart to others after comin back...and after pouring out my tots for the past 3 days... im feeling awhole lot better...knowing that i have frenz to support me...and to guide me thru...hahah...thanks alot lah...

i keep sayin to everyone..." i give up liao..."...but all my frenz all say..."aiya..u bluff wan lah..after a while...then sure again say..oh i tink i like.... again" ...

hahahahah...eh dudes... i realli too sianz about this word called love loh..hahah if it comes then it comes eh...if not...then singlehood loh...perfectly fine with it...the tot of being single is not that bad actualli.. =)

Phuket...Here I Come...

2005-04-14T21:16:00.000-07:00

headed to phuket for the next 5 days...from 15-19 April..so if u wanna contact me...jus call my mum...she has got auto-roaming... oh well, ill be lookin forward to baskin in the sun and catching corals or swimming with the fishes in the clear blue sea hahaha... actually i really dunno how phuket is like..didnt go there for the past few years....so we shall see if my predictions of what im gonna do there will come true haha...

I wouldnt be looking forward to this vacation...in fact, i wouldnt even wanna go...coz i know whenever i leave spore...i will miss that someone... but i accept the fact and this vacation couldnt come at a better time...

she told me after my KL trip that "even tho she missed me, i shouldnt miss her but enjoy the company of my frenz when i was there".... oh well,at least now there isnt that privilege of me missing anyone besides having the time of my life... hahah

I reign victorious and i will soldier on...irregardless of the pain and burden thats moulding in me..

It's Over

2005-04-12T22:27:00.000-07:00

yea, as i had tot..its over..

If your gf/bf asked you this question...

"What are your expectations of me, as your Gf/Bf?"

How would u reply?

Would you reply..." I would like you to sms me at least 3 times a day...I would like you to tell me how your day was...i like you to meet me at least once a week..."

or would you reply..." If i could put down in words what i expected from you....then i would not be faced with so much emotions and problems..."

I said the latter...because i know...if u really truly love someone... you would not need to tell him/her what to do...coz they will know what to do...and they will do it in their own style/way...thats what makes every r/ship so special.......am i not rite? If everything was scripted...then whats more there to life..."

BGR aside...

2005-04-11T03:47:00.000-07:00

well, if onli i can dun tink so much... just let me focus on fulfilling my goals and aims... thats all i ask~

aniway, lifes been okay.... alot more ppl has crossed my path and there are alot of interesting ppl who have entered mi frenship circle...many of whom are worthy frenz...

and thats all i ask for...worthy n true frenz... are u one?

Im just a kid

2005-04-11T03:40:00.000-07:00

Im just a kid...and life is a nightmare...
Im just a kid..and i know that its not fair..

nice song from SImple Plan... can be quite true too.... but lets not be too pessimistic hor? ..

been going thru alot of stuff...more mental actualli... what does a rship mean to you?? What essential elements do you need...to know that u r in a rship?? What does it feel like to be in a rship.....?

i tot i knew all these answers....but alas, life is more than just words... and words alone seem to help her understand............. nor do i understand....

i've tried...i've done all that i would do as a guy who loves you... but maybe...im jus not for you..

Updates

2005-03-19T20:49:00.000-08:00

hello ppl..its been eons since i last blogged..time to really have a fruitful update!! er okie..how to begin??

firstly, the Dream It Do It singing Competition in TP!! hehe im glad i joined it.. it realised my dream of performing to an audience and the semi's was smooth sailing for me..tot i did my best...but for the finals..my singing can be greatly improved... even my closest ppl criticised my singing..i was hoping for some constructive critisicm...but what do they know... aniways...IM HAPPY coz i won the comp..tho. not realli deservingly.. kudos to all the other contestants..there all did realli well...

but what made me realli hapy was the fact that i made alot of frenz in TP whom are realli nice.. the contestants that made it to the finals are ppl who deserve to be there..with no airs or arrogance...jus pure talent and character... *amazing ppl*... theres jessica..vivian.. sugi...widya and LEONARD...haha

jus realised jessica stays around my area for the past 10 yrs..n our paths nearly crossed but neva..alas till today haha..

aniways..moving on...after winning the comp..i feel v motivated to go further.. n not let anithing pull me down... and ill try my best to move on.. glad that one of the judges is willing to sponsor me for a BMG audition..jhope they would groom me man..i jus wanna realise a dream... i dreamt about it..n i did it.!! but im still hoping that tis is jus the beginning...

aniways..jus to thank all my classmates n skool mates n close frenz who went to see me sing... neva had the chance to realli say thanks..but THANK YOU!!! the bracelet u guys got me was nice..hahah love it!

okie to move on...

the nex thing i could recall..is that i had a frenly against avion... we were losing 31-23 or something like that in the 3rd quarter...but the 4th quarter was awesome..came back to beat them 40-31..they didnt get to score...great performance by the team..showed great maturity..
realli proud of my team..even tho. there were minor scarred incidents hhaha..which is totalyl fine! glad to be there to help the team rise to the occasion...

and finally..its the exam period but ill be busy with rehearsals... hmm hope exams would end soon..yupyup!! hope everything goes well and that the period b4 i enlist... i will take a path that i will see light n future to it! =)

*pls show me ur guiding light Lord.. amen*

miracles do exist

2005-03-02T08:47:00.000-08:00

heyo~ this is one happiness which i must share with U!!! hahha... i really thank God for what has happened...n tho. i know luck is involved too..but i still thank GOd....... why am i thankin him? well its because i joined my poly's singing competition and competed with some really talented and pure solid singers in skool man..all with their own style n uniqueness...
unlike me...copycat hahaha...but the semi's jus ended and know what? i got FIRST!!! hahah my gosh..its totally taiko n lucky n miraculous n yadah!!! all the "sure or not" kinda thing...

all thanks to my last min song change to "better man" ...hahah guess i know what karaoke song i can sing loh!! wheee.... and now..it doesnt really matter if i win or lose..what matters most is that i had fun and made many nice frenz..who share the same passion as mE..hehe... it beats winning anithing...
yupyup~~ and my frenz were v nice to come down too...really appreciate it... aaron..zacky...xiao mei..xiao mei mei mei..n CAIlian and Fren~~ hahah nice okie..jus wanna share my happiness with u...thanks for listening! hehe i will work hard for the finals... Wheee

GONG XI FA CAI!

2005-02-11T01:24:00.000-08:00

wheres my ang BAO!?????? *screams* ....
oh hello..heh sorry eh..too anxious to know where is my ang bao~~ where where..u there..dun hide away hor...i know u got ang bao~~ wheres mine? hehe

hows ur new yr?? mine was normal...didnt do much...didnt visit my dad's side..coz of my stupid proj that i gotta do~ but glad its all over...now can slack abit...

chinese new yr day 1 was fun coz of the KTV session with my sec skool frenz!! now then i realise guys singing ktv can be so damn funny! hahah had an ultra great time laughing... then came back n slept like a log till break of dawN!

hmmm oh ya~ got my lee wei song performing group audition toO!!! it was okay, i tot i did okay for the pitching n rhythmn clapping portion..but my singing was pretty bad!!!! sigh...but im still praying very very hard that i can make it! i really wanna learn more and experience performing songs during charities and stuff like that..think it'll be alot of fuN!!! Please GOD...let me get in.......................... *prays*

then moving on..i still got 2 more singing items left...one is the audition for my skool's competition and another is the final year performance for my lee wei song singing class... hope it all goes well!! practise is the key i guess hahah...

oh well, moving full gear into singing liao..hope to do my best in this area of my interest, passion and work...

updates

2005-01-25T19:03:00.000-08:00

time to update on my life...quite a few happenings...

firstly, i manage to get my napfa gold liao~ quite happy with it..so now just waiting for my ns letter to see where i am posted...some ppl say "go commandos" its good...while others do not advice me too...well, guess ill have to discuss with my mum~

secondly, i went on a 2 day bball expedition..where i played highly intensive bball games at tcc on fri and sat...where the sun was blazing hot and i was baking like a hawaiian pizza~ but it was fun...and the sat match with AVION was a fruitful match...great offensive display but pretty bad defensive outing~ but overall was great...94-42..
i guess there were too many individual aims...we were not really a "team-work" team but more of "individual glory"...

alas, all these days of exercise n heat exposure has taken its toll on me....got a fever at 6am on a sun morning...then couldnt attend church properly or singing lessons..then got home n was half dead..then the subsequent days after my fever is down, i got stomach flu...till today~ where i still feel horrbile...this feeling sucks...n worst still, i kinda got work piled up~ sigh~

but amongst all these, know something? i feel v. grateful.....

to the RBLians who lifted me up when i was in church... AP, DH, Andy, JW (i use these acrynoms in my daily journal) and to my poly mates Jia yan, Zacky, Aaron, xiao mei and xiao mei mei~

they showed concern when i leasat expected it..and it really made me grateful..
and to CL too... for letting me have a great shopping time and also making me feel alot better..
thank u all~

emptiness

2005-01-12T19:55:00.000-08:00

feeling kinda empty lately...as if something is missing in my life...

if somethin is meant to be urs...
no matter what u do..
u cant shake it off..
n e vice versa applies too.....

i feel like a lost soul now....

why?

2005-01-10T18:20:00.000-08:00

i just dont understand.....
Why is my life so screwed up?
my efforts all went down the drain...
and my heart is left broken once again.
argh...

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-02T20:07:00.000-08:00

YESSSS..its overrrr....my attachment is finally OVER! wheeeeee......................................hahahaha
the work i had was quite xiong man....coulldnt wait to get it over with....
yes yes yes!!!!!!!!!!!!

but thinkin back, my employers there have been very nice...*tho. not always* and well i tot i liked the working environment...if not for the stupid RMP Project...hahha but whatever it is, i know one thing for sure...SKOOL ROCKS..haha the best times in a person's life...notmally begins in skool~

yupyup...time to go exercising again..go singing again..n go back to feeling like a teenager and not some middle age working adult..man tat life sucks..so lifeless..hahah
*no offence to those out there...but i guess i still prefer skool*

SIP- Silly Idiotic Pui..

2004-12-15T23:27:00.000-08:00

Ehlo..as the name suggests, my feelings to SIP is really Silly, Idiotic and plain *PUI* man... haha..okay..honestly, i not feeling really good about my attachment ...but other coursemates of mine are even gonna miss SIP..sigh~ the tot in me now is really a big "NO WAY will i miss SIP"..

maybe its just me..but reall think that my work is really more demanding than expected... i would have drown if not for certain times when i used my brains...but i still got fired once in a while....*but i deserved it*...but ultimately...

i know for sure that in-house legal work is not my cup of tea..maybe doing law is not even a choice for me...thing is, my onli interest lies in criminal law...and maybe family...but besides that, everything else falls short...

sigh~ okie im reminiscing again...e good ol days... *awww*...

btw, out of these jobs, which can u picture me to be?
1) Criminal lawyer
2) Zoo Keeper
3) PE teacher
4) Business man
5) Toilet Cleaner...(hehe jus a joke...i know i suit this too well le..*

Maturity

2004-12-15T06:21:00.000-08:00

Been feeling kinda old lately...dunno whats up...maybe its just a phase in me ba..
=) Went for KTV with RBL..n was feeling kinda dead...then see all of them kinda bubbly and chatty.... i feel kinda out haha...maybe i really old..or im jus dead tired..
i really miss thsoe days where bball was my life.... but now...music and singing is my life...who knows what else would be in e future...

oh n yday there was a miscommunication in the family which resulted in arguments...n i kinda got dragged in the pic...hmm...my dad ask me to go n be a lawyer....n told me to choose that path... at 1230 am... just feels kinda weird....
n to tink about it...e exact answer i have for it was a big NO! i dunno..i rather do something else more meaningful....then go round arguing with others and winning cases for ppl that MAY not necessaryy be innocent haha~

Jo's 21st BDAY PARTY!!!

2004-12-11T20:55:00.000-08:00

wow..just got back at 6 am tis morning after chionging KTV with my family n cousins..hhaha we just experienced what it feels like to be singing at 5 am in the morning...hahha its quite a "high" feeling...=) but it was very fun...b4 that was my cousin Jolene's 21st bday...not too bad..supposedly a superhero costume party but onli the cousins dressed up..her frenz all not on wan...haha but who cares? the cousins had a fun time laughing at the fake wigs and outrageous costumes..hehe *FunZ* happy bday JOjO!

anyway..its been eons since i blogged and yea..my life has got quite a few ups and downs during this period...been writing alot of poems too...haha hoping one day they might turn into songs of my own.... then u can hear them on the radio waves!! *cool*

oh btw, u all know i having attachment rite... I WAN COMPLAIN SOMETHING....

I HAVEN GET MY PAY YET....*SianZZZzzzzz*
they are 2 weeks behind my pay schedule and its so "demoralising"...i find no motivation to work liao...hahahhaha '....
but my work lately has been really really busy...nex 2 weeks till e end of my work is gonna be even more strenuous....sigh~ gimme me strength~

=) time to buzz off...ive yet to eat my lunch hahah or shld i say breakfast...whaha *hungry* rubs tummy~

Another 4 weeks till end of Attachment

2004-12-04T09:50:00.000-08:00

Heyo... as e title suggests, its another month till the end of my Attachment...and as of now...i really cant wait for that to happen..i kinda realise that i enjoy skool much more than i enjoy work.. these few working days really make me realise older working ppl HAVE NO LIFE...not that they dun go and chiong after work..but basically their whole life would be spent just in e office and thats all~~

Just gets me to think that what i really wanna do in future...is something NOT LIKE THAT *haha.. guess im one who prefer an active lifestyle n job* So far, ive considered being a P.E teacher or criminal lawyer...these 2 areas will really get me intrigued...n maybe even be air steward for awhile..hahah~ what do u tink???

oh well, as i spoke with a very wise teacher, he told me that im a person who likes to do alot of things and can be quite a worrier... which is very much true... tink nex time i will have lotsa wrinkles n white hair..hahaha~~ i always thought that i was a jack of all trades....(what sports lah..what music lah..what dancing lah...i all interested and wanna try...haha) ...and very much a master of none.... and i always thought that was a bad thing..............but a very wise teacher told me that there are many masters out there who lead a sad life...they r not happy even being a master at something......so being a jack is not all that bad....hehe besides, a jack makes u versatile...whats more, no one is perfect...so u can be e best at one thing...but u cant be e best at everything!!!

Yup...kinda helped me think alot...oh n besides that, i really need to build up my confidence man... i really think i need to find some ego n boost myself...i guess i shld not be too self-conscious.... n just be myself ba~~ yupyup...
okie..thats alot of self-thought for today...hehe take care...

btw..today is e first time i go kbox with my mum n bro..wahha FUN! oh n Jolene's "first Time" too...hhaha...

Im an IncreDiBle

2004-11-23T07:41:00.000-08:00

hey yo~ got watch the incredibles??? its a real heart-warming show..
not really typical of cartoons..normally laugh laugh n all forget wan..but THe IncrediBles is quite warm~ hahah *i just love warm stuff....not literally lah...like the WARM kinda feeling*

aniway...i caught the show with my mum n bro....aint that nice...?..haha *wats e moral of this story?*..well... it means that family time can involve something which is FUN TO DO TOOO...like catchin a MOVIE!! haha..=)

oh oh ...and wanna know how my singing comp went??? haha...i got SecOnd~~~~ wheee...*oh i not showiong off hor...just wanna share my happiness with U*...yupyup..but i actualli reviewed the video of me singing n i kinda sang real badly....dunno how come still get 2nd....* i guess the $50 note i pass to the judges really did help...WAHAHAHA...j/k*
my dad n cous say i sang the wrong song.. n when i saw their faces while i was singing, i can tell it was pretty bad~ hmmm...oh well its all over.... and there is really nothing i can do about it..cept to improve...

to be honest, my 3rd try at singing comps felt different....nothing beats singing at my that first ever competition....the feeling jus seem wrong ba...yupyup.... but im sure theres more to come...
n i promised my bro nex yr...if there is a second singapore idol..i will give it a try...
not to be an idol...but to do what i love to do...Sing~ =)

MiDnItE CyCling

2004-11-15T01:04:00.000-08:00

haha i hereby declare that MIDNITE CYCLING IS SUPER FUN! hahaha...
i covered almost half of singapore...from ECP, to Marine Parade, to Kallang, to Suntec/esplanade and then followed by orchard..haha and back to square one, ECP~
hahah and it took about 4 hours?? pretty fun man...would love to do it sometime again haha..but i guess should do that when i have a chalet...coz after all that cycling.. u could reli do with a nice bath n a comfy bed haha..but nonetheless..its an experience i will neva forget..

WOW...

2004-11-06T22:12:00.000-08:00

haha howdi partner!! how long have i MIA liao ah?? -missing in action-...
about 2 weeks?? wahha...sorry loh~ lately because of attachment then MIA loh..not my fault..blame the skool! haha but nonetheless, its a learning experience ba.. n i get some salary loh..so its hai hao~ not too bad...like they say, "mai hiam bue pai..ai hiam kena sai" =P

So to just update on Monsieur Yong, aka ME~, there reli isnt much besides working and everyday is routine...730 wake up, brush teeth, then dad send moi mum n i to mrt then take train to city hall n take shuttle bus to work~ wahha..*oh btw i work around suntec area, centennial tower to be exact..so wan come visit me lah..i am free for lunch between 12-2..wahhaa..*

From my work , i realise something.... *dun be surprised hor*... i just find that pregnant ladies ARE VERY ATTRACTIVE...*oei..not that i am attracted to ani now lah..*
but i just find that pregnant ladies have that special factor emitting from them...and it seems very warmt..haha
know why i tink so?? Coz in my legal dept, i got 2 colleagues who are pregnant...* and NO..its not me who made them pregnant!!!* haha and evreyday i see them...got a very nice and warmt feeling...haha..okie

lets see.... OH OH!!! forgot to tell u ...i having another singing competition tis 20 NOV...its like a inter- country club karaoke competition and my country club ask if i wanna join.,...OF COZ!! haha go there n malu myself lah..but i dun mind lah..once in a lifetime chance so go loh wahaha...
*talking about that, i haven send in my application form..shucks*..

oh n jus to end off b4 i go for singing class, take care ppl... and my life is made wonderful coz i feel a new sense of belonging!

Love is about wanting and needing...
Do you want and need me?

The future is in your hands...live it

2004-10-24T05:27:00.000-07:00

Whee..just got back from keyboard and singing class..quite tiring but today was fun~ hahha..i so think i can only sing R&B songs..haha i guess im e groovy sorta person..so ask me sing ballads... i tink ill screw it up~ wahha..

oh well, after keyboard class, e t-cher asked if we wanted to further our learning coz nex week will be e last day for Keyboard....yup..there is advance keyboard class or composing class~ n know something....*i am intersted in composing*!!! hahaa...now that i have fulfilled my wish of playing e keyboard and sing *tho. not v good*....i tink i can start singing my OWN SONGS! hahaha so i reli feel like joining e COMPOSING CLASS!! but only prob besides money is...i tink i wont be able to take it soon coz of NS...if i join now then my NS how?? SURE CLASH!!! and its a 2 yr course....sigh...
i wanna do composing......=~(..*oh well...i guess see how things go ba..maybe i can use that break during my NS to sharpen my basic singing and keyboard..then continue with composing after~ wahah..i tink it will be damn stress but damn fun~ haha watch out for my songs in e airways..in maybe 10 yrs time??? hehe...

and tml will be start of a brand new day..week and WORK too~ sigh..i know its been a thousant million times uve heart me complain~ but too bad..haha i got some feminism in me...*oops..no offence to gals* ....yea~ but i look forward to learning more stuff in toyota lah~ so yup~ jia you...

TodaY!

2004-10-22T22:46:00.000-07:00

haha i cant find a title to type so put "today" loh..haha no link~ *oh well*

moving on...tho. my entry on my first day of SIP seems pretty tiring and seems as if i wont last thru..hahha its actualli quite the opposite now. Im actually enjoying my days in Toyota and my colleagues seem to be those that can play play..wahah but must maintain a certain level of conduct lah~ but after e 1st day, my 2nd n 3rd day were fun and yea~ meeting up with fellow attaches at orchard yday, i feel that i am actually v fortunate to be able to have pretty much an easy life so far in toyota~ so must count my blessings!!!! yup..but im also prepared to have a tough time when e work load starts piling in!

anyway, hey all u TP students on attachment, lets all JIA YOU and get thru this together okie..*whoever is reading this* ...oh n also happy BdaY to CHOON LEI, MING HONG, EllinCE and DUDE JAymeS LiM Cheong Cheong~~haha ...all old liao...wahha..but yup.hope u guys like e presents i got.. *dude, when can meet u to pass u urs?*

oh n later i gonna buy some formal pants..wahah time to get out of those short n tight formal pants that i have...so paiseh man~ *my employers actualli did notice my tight n short pants...*blush*_

After first day of SIP

2004-10-20T04:50:00.000-07:00

TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*even typing this blog gives me a headache*

Attachment... SIP!!!!!

2004-10-19T09:22:00.000-07:00

heyo...my sip..or student internship programme begins TML!!!..wahh....*more like today coz its past 12 am* oh well..~ jus hope tmls a great day n a great afternn n a great evening where i can enjoy my working life in TOYOTA~ hahaha...oh well~ pls pray that i get good working colleagues and environment~ =)

will update u on my SIP life...once the day has ended~take care all~

Patience

2004-10-16T22:08:00.000-07:00

Patience is a virtue...even more important when it comes to affairs of the heart...

and i will be waiting for you...till the day when e barrier is broken and a bridge to ur heart is formed...

~ill be the one walking that bridge~

Rehi!

2004-10-11T19:04:00.000-07:00

hah long time no blog le..but its jus coz nuttin much in my life i guess...but got something tot i blog down lah..since i dunno who to say to..haha

SIP is drawing near and by the 20oct, i wont have that much free time alredi...n i most probably wont be able to attend ANY dragon boat trainings as its all in the mornings of the weekdays and ends... which means that i can onli attend 1 training out of 4?? and that totally sucks~ =(
to be honest, i do have half a mind to quit...not coz my desire has left me..and not coz my team mates bore me...if anithing, its because of them that i am staying on~ but when SIP comes, how am i going to train with them? how do i get a seat in the boat?

worst part is, all my hard work that i put into dragon boat, the !$#@$#@ coach just have to be sooo freaking idiotic and crappy...he says i have an attitude problem..and jus coz i stand up for wat i believe.. *im not a rebel..im jus saying wat i feel is right* he thinks im against him n i gotta face the wrath of being cut from the squad...this makes all my training worthless... i've given my best but i guess the coach has the final say and i have no intention of going against him animore..he killed the team.. n he killed my opportunity~ just because i dun suck up and shine his shoes.... but hey~ i guess its better this way...oh well~

On a happier note, my flu is recovering and i am able to sing once again haha~got 2 frenz bday coming soon and also my mum's bday round the corner..so gotta do something special for them~ *hopefully* haha

Exams r....OVER!!!

2004-10-06T04:48:00.000-07:00

wahah okie..i would wanna show all my excitement and happiness but i shall simmer down coz i know ppl tt read this blog may not be in e same situation as me..nonetheless..WORK HARD PPL!...in no time..IT'll All be OveR!haha

Tues- Great DAy MAn~~ went to watch White Chicks with my Tp frenz n it was super funny! e toilet and e black buff guy singing TOTALLY CRACKED ME UP! hahah it was really funny...then went to Zacky's house to play PS2 hehe..n i am so addicted to it loh~ but i know if i got PS2 at home...it would be more detrimental than beneficial..haha alot of things that i am supposed to do will be over ruled by PS2...hahah aniway..moving on..~

after that, i headed to e airport n sent CHOON LEI off...e WHOLE RBL gang was there...even Joshua who MIA for like -how long???- was there haha..but its a nice sending off...n CHOON...have a safe trip yea..Australia is a near place...so wont be so bad~hehe then ate fried chicken n then headed to KTV with jaymes and jia wen..n it was KENNY's bday....wahhh...guess he was quite touched that elroy, winston, rongz n i were there...whee...~ n know something...
yday was e first time WE (jaymes, jia wen n i) sang in the OPEN HALL hahha..it was pretty funny coz open hall is cheaper n if u wanna cancel songs or change key, u gotta ask e reception direct..whahaha...super paiseh~ but super fun...

wed- haha after all that singing..n fried food...my throat is suffering..hahah my "manly" voice now is quite painful lah..but e damage was lessen coz i drank like 2 gallons of water? hahah..yea then well went to exercise n swim n e normal stuff i normally do lah..haha

aniway to end off, i guess i can blog abt wat ive gotta do during e hols lah...so that at least when i refer back, i will know haha..hmm lets see...
1) train for DB
2) Sing sing sing n keyboard
3) taking baby milkshake to have his nails and paw fur cut
4) going out with FRENZ..
5) spending time with Mum...Dad n Bro~
6) then last but not least....... WORK~ haha...*fyi its my skool attachment lah..starts on 20 oct..sigh~~ means my hols is cut to onli 2 weeks..SIGH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

but now, i jus hope that my hols will be beautiful..for u n for me~~~ hopefulli~

2004-10-02T06:45:00.000-07:00

Heyo!!..guess why am i blogging again?? guess guess guess?? haha dunno rite..see i knew u were not so smart..haha oh well...im here to tell u...

IVE FINALLY EATEN MY FIRST MOONCAKE ...hahah its a pandan one actualli...but u know something...it doesnt taste as nice as i tot it to be..but nonetheless...in celebration of my belated mooncake festival...i ATE IT n i kinda enjoyed it..hahah

moving on..i wanna get e cable for 7250 then can transfer fotos to web..hahah can put all my "zi LIAN' fotos on e net...then also can save space on my fone lah..so anione out there got lobang...can tell me..? thanks..i checked e price is abt 88 bucks... sigh...good number lah..but i would prefer it if it was 88 CENTS hahah..*crap*... ciaozzz gonna burn e midnight oil again...hope tis time...e word KNOWLEDGE does enter into my brain haha

Venue= skool LAB

2004-10-01T21:39:00.000-07:00

Wahhh haha im in e skool lab noww..whee...finally finished printing my company law provisions! ALOT MAN....*print till can cry...but its still not as bad as printing rules of court n etc....ALL IN LAW WOULD KNOW THAT TRAUMA....*shrugs*

aniway jus droppin by my blog to say hi~...updates in life...hmmm Baby Milkshake is fine...getting closer to him day by day n i always wake up at 1230am to start studyin n spend time with him~ wahhah he doesnt seem to sleep loh~~n after that i will study till abt 3???

haha much as i wanna study..i cant seem to absorb n undersatnd wat i am reading... *oh well*...
hmmm aniways besides baby milkshake, went to Tanglin CC to paly bball yday for a last farewell bball game for CHOON LEI! she flying off soon to AUST ...*bon Voyage gal...* will miss ur blurness n fun!~! RBL will miss u de...

Hmmm wat else to add?? oh well NUTTIN LOH~ when some inspiration comes to me..i will be sure to tag~ wahaha

S-T-U-D-Y

2004-09-28T22:02:00.000-07:00

haha dun u jus hate that word?? well maybe not for all but i know im one who finds that word..QUITe hard to comprehend..haha if only studyin was not such a tough thing to do... aniway im bloggin now to take a short break from my studying..

what can i say?? hmm yday was mooncake festival...HOW WAS IT??? mine was quite normal...i mean..how to enjoy MoonCake Festival when u r training RITE?? haha ..while others out there playing with lantern n sparkles...im down by e pool with my valiant team mates...rowin our hands n arms off! haha but it was a good training nonetheless...

*Mooncake festival reminds me of e younger days when my granny still around n we would hang around her place n neighbours place to play lanterns n lights..haha its such a nice n fun moment...memories of my past... its jus sad that shes not around animore...even tho is been like 4 years?? my family n my granny were neiighbours n most of e time i would go to her place for dinners...n i always rem e overjoyed look my granny had whenever she saw me return home from skool from her balcony..n how she would ask if i wanted to eat anithing special.. n she would cook for me!! haha i didnt disappoint her tho..i ALWAYS finished all e food for her haha *thus my size now..but thats not impt* yup...granny where ever u r now...jus wanna say....4 years has not changed the way i feel for u...u r still enacted in my head n no other person would replace e spot u have in my heart!!

"A wish i had...was set upon a star...
Praying that it would reach the heart..
Of someone whom i miss very much...
She was good...she was great...
She took care of me and thats no easy feat..
She fed me well..with delicious meals...
Something which i thought..was no big deal...
But now i know..im oh so wrong..
To be so hard-hearted...
And take her for granted..."

I love u granny...

Saturday!!!

2004-09-24T22:15:00.000-07:00

heyo..todays sat n got my uncle's 60th birthday later...going down to help out later..hmm hows ur sat morning feeling??? hope it becomes better yea?
ever had e feeling where u wanna do so many things..but u jus dun have e mood to do so??
i wanna practise my keyboard n singing...i wanna study for my exams...i wanna play with my baby rabbit .. annd i wanna train n exercise ....i wanna do all these NOW haha..but dunno why ah..like no mood..jus feel so stagnant...guess its time to priortise...yupyup..e KEY WORD is PRIORITISE....

hmm oh ya..gotta start getting bday presents for frenz tts having their bday soon..gonna be BROKE liao loh..sigh haha..but its okie...its always nice to give than to receive...n i do believe in karma too...*what u do is what u get in return.*

oh forgot to say abt yday bball...SUPER FUN!!! someone said that i was siow for playing soooo much bball..n exericising so much...but too bad..tts jus me....bleah!! exercising keeps u fit REMEMBER...hahah okie..enuff crap..time to PRIORITISE! tata

smile

2004-09-22T01:17:00.000-07:00

Heyo~ past few days been pretty interesting..met up with poly frenz and had fun chatting n catchin up with movies..haha but soon, all e exams will pile in~ *whee.. hope to be able to focus myself on e exams...

Yup..its been happy days for me during e past week..after experiencing some down fall..yup..but things seems to be brightening up and truth be said...i may start missing poly after my attachment starts...n not because i miss skool..but more coz i miss e ppl that ive gotten to know..
old frenz n new frenz... yr 3 reli let me feel special and valued...haha oh well~

jus a few days back, i was tinking of going to army ASAP coz i was dreaded poly life...but now, i may have to take some of that words back.. coz i will miss e frenz ive made in poly..n i reli do feel lonely to a certain extent.... haha jus hope i wont fall into those *despo recruits* category after going to army... hahah

another poem in my head...

When i see ur eyes...
In my dreams at nite..
I wish so much...
To hold u tight..

To hold u close..
N hold u dear..
Till forevers come..
Or forevers near..

Nor will I let..
My arms to go..
Not when i...
Have u to hold..

*would i make another grave mistake?*

solo virgin performance at law investiture

2004-09-20T20:39:00.000-07:00

Arlo...got complaints from ppl coz i neva update my blog haha..so here i am again loh! *bleah*

hmmm oh as e heading suggests, i jus had my first ever solo performance in front of a record attendance of.......err 30 ppl? hhahaha nah! its jus singing 2 songs during e law investiture..quite a last min thing but luckily i got memorize 2 songs b4 that so can sing during e event...wahhh...must say i was quite nervous but when performing..im glad my tongue was not tied up n i guess i did my best..haha nice or not is another thing but i liked e atmosphere during e performance...dim lights with a cool air surrounding and u have all e ppl's attention...its a nice feeling to perform..n e best is that some ppl said i did a good job...tts e best comments a singer could have..hahah thanks to mich n shi xian for this chance!! haha n tts my first solo virgin performance...haha

was a nice day yday too coz watched dodgeball with joanne! its a super funny show man...all e lame jokes inside hahah....dodge dip duck dup dodge hahha *if im not wrong*... then aaron n jia yan came for e law investiture thing to gimme support...wahhh v greatful to them!! thats wat frenz r for...hahah if ever they need me..ill be there toO!! haha
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Baby Milkshake

2004-09-12T22:45:00.000-07:00

Heyyyy ppl~ jus in case u guys are wondering who is milkshake?? he is none other than my BELOVED RABBIT !!! hehe got him from Griselda..*thank thank u u i will reli take care of him de. n u will get to see him SOOON!!!*

yup..back to baby milkshake...ive been with him for 10 days le!! he is a super active rabbit n yet when u pet him hor..he will jus sit there n let u rub!!! hahah n e look on his face is jus niCE!! so cute..hahha he is my new found love~ hahah tho he is a guy n im a guy *yess...i AM A GUY* that does not mean i am gay hahha..more like fatherly love to my baby! hahahah *ok dunno wat i talkin abt*

yupyup he brought some life into the family...but reli...hE SHITS ALOT!!! haha *literally full of shit* haha but i still love hiM! heheh.....i hope that one day i can bring him for walks n train him to be like a pet dog n go for jogs~ hahahahha

*if anibody wanna see his pic...sorri to disappoint...i not rich got no digi cam to upload fotos..but if u n baby milkshake got fate, u guys will meet hahah!*
adios

Count ur Blessings

2004-09-02T08:32:00.000-07:00

Im v oblivious this sem..i neva knew e blessings i had...n i was so engrossed with being selfish n thinkin abt myself n thinkin abt BGR probs which were sooo unnecessary...there were so many blessings that i have that i neva opened my eyes to see...rite till now..n everyday..im discovering a new blessing.....=)

im gonna count my blessings *literally* now.. u can do so toO! haha
1) on training days...when im sooo tired...my dad fetches me home from skooL!! *many of my db frenz arent tt privilege*

2) i GET TO DRIVE TO SKOOL other than training days!!

3) I get to spend time with my family...*i.e watching Alien vs Predator with my mum n bro..btw e predator is like so UNCOOL LOH hahha like a comedy*

4) im not rich..but i have a caring n loving mother whose relentless love ensures i am financially satisfied..

5) i am not good looking...but ive got perfect working hands and legs and body where i can fully utilize them n enjoy the feeling of being alive... i can touch, feel, taste, hear and see all e wonderful things in the world...*wat else can beat that*

6...7....8....99...1000000000~~ i can go on n on abt my blessings...

ppl..dun take things in life for granted...be contented..~ u can strive to be e best..n be the highest...but neva forget ur base...dun let ur goal take over ur morals and ur values...if ur values were not worthy...then wat does "valuable" mean?

that aside..jus wanna say this to my frenz in tp...mainly Jia Yan, Aaron, Zacky and Kher Wei...
Thanks for making year 3 e better years in my poly days...i dunno where we will end up ...how we will be..but im glad i have this memory of us..kept in a special place in my heart and head...
year 3 is nice..because of u guys...xie xie..*bows*

C'est moi

2004-09-02T08:13:00.000-07:00

haha wa i long time no blog le~~ time to update update~ this time not gonna talk ani crap. but jus say how my life has beennnn~~~~ heheh

oh for e past few days i have been waking up...brushing my teeth..washing my face...answering nature call and.....*crap* ohh wait..i promised not to talk crap hahah..ok serious...O-O

Good News~ hehe i gonna write abt my first ever formal interview with a company..*toyota motor asia pte ltd* ..this is for my attachment coz i year 3 liao mah..*old le old le*..aniway..i was one of the lucky few out of 10+ applications to be granted interview..and i go there..quite cooL~ high class place and etc..then i wait wait wait..then finally my turn le..

i go in..n got 2 ppl..mr Noor and ms Valerie..* wah they look intimidating man * then they asked questions and well kinda made me relaxed..but i tink i contradicted myself alot..n made a fool of myself..haha heres one

: i told them i am not good in sports......but my resume clear shows that i've joined like 3 ccas and they were all sporting ccas....then they were like.."huh? -_-!!! .and they LAUGH! ...2) Mr. Noor out of the blue asked..."do u smoked"....then i stunned...*why he ask??* then i cover my mouth and asked..."is my teeth yellow?"...THEN THEY BURST OUT LAUGHING AGAIN!! i soooo tink i made a fool of myself..but i reli enjoyed that interview ba..hehe n e nex day..WHHHHEEEE I GOT E JOB!! wish me luck

oh then as to other updates...hmmm lets see..got once was havin lunch with aaron and i was telling aaron..."i tink we shld be more sensitive...sensitive to other ppl's feelings.." ..i said so coz both aaron n i r fortunate to get an SIP place jus with our first interview...while our good frenz Jia YAN n Zacky still dun have even after much trying.....and i was telling him how depressing it can be...so i told him to be more sensitive as i guess b4 that, he did say out n ms jia yan was a little sad..

BUT HEY!! no ones perfect eh..Aaron n i have learnt our lesson and Jia Yan has got her attachment PLACE too~ sooo YEA~~ n Zacky...we will all be supporting u....*straits law straits law* haha...

to end~

People dun care how much you know...until they know how much u care...

so do cherish and show concern to others around u~ u may neva know when u will need a helping hand...n these ppl that u show concern to, they may be ur saviours in e nex half of ur life!

Time flies...Horrrr~~

2004-08-27T19:13:00.000-07:00

yuppers ppl..for those who do not know..time really flies...

have u ever taken a break...and look at e past u've left behind? and take a look at the paths u've crossed?? if u haven...do take a step back..and look back~ but rem ...dun dwell into it...its afterall...THE PAST...remember..the past is HIStory....not UR-story..so dun make it urs animoore...let it go yea??and tink aHEAD!

haha...*dun even know if im making sense here* oh well..must be because i jus woke up~ haha..
*wats for breakfast?????..............................................*

RBL's History

2004-08-24T21:07:00.000-07:00

whoa whoaa...long time no blog loh~~ haha not that i was busy but maybe dunno wat to blog? haha

aniways..today gonna blog abt a grp of my special frenz...called RAINBOWLOVE..a.k.a RBL!

lets see where to begin...i guess my connection was thru ms CHONG CHOON LEI ba...still rem NDP2000~~ and ACSb and SCGS were involved..haha *so exciting..can train together with e gals lah..see gals lah..n hopefully ...get to know gals also hahahah~ *eh but now more matured le..wont tink like that liao hahaha*

then got to chat with a gal named choon lei~~ so cute rite..like from e street fighter..e gal with 2 PAOS on her head hahah..aniways..chat with her liao..then found her to be v nice n frenly...then recall on my sec3 bday..went out with choon lei..n her 2 frenz...ANgeLiNe n Ai PiNG! n watch RoMeo Must DIEE hahah..still rem it was a fun time with me makin all e sound effects haha..

however, after tt event..somehow neva contact much le..but 1 1/2 years later...being a bball fanatic...i talked to aiping by chance n heard that they play bball regularly..*cool...can go n show off liao hahaha* rite~ yea aniways..then i joined them for bball every day during e june hols n it was e best times of my sec skool life~ ~ e fun that we have...e jokes that we shared..its all so memorable....

then e grp grew bigger n bigger...fr 5..to10..to 20~ so many ppl came n go came n go~~ but after being together for 3+ 4 years...im happy to say i STILL FEEL part of RBL..n RBL is still part of me!

To RBL-ians...we have practically grown up together..experienced ups n downs..n all e happiness and sadness...but we have now all grown up to diff stages in life..no more like b4...however.. lets not stay together for e sake of stayin together...but for e sake of knowing..who are ur true frenz in times of need n doubt..n who are ur true frenz whom u've experienced alot with...and wanting to stay as frenz forever..

Btw..tis is specially dedicated to ms Chong Choon Lei~
if not for u..i may have never known such a wonderful grp of ppl in RBL..and if not for u..i may not have enjoyed my sec skool days as u lighted the path for me..n open e door to this wonderful family~ thank u...=)

Single--Attached--Married

2004-08-20T07:15:00.000-07:00

hey peps..tink its quite apt for me now to analyze e pros of being single, attached and married hahaha...

Single: Pros:1) U have more time for family, frenz and studies. Basically more time to do WHAT
u wan..
2) U have more "freedom" to be with whoever you wan..no obligations.
3) U Save MonEy ....hahaha
4) U will have one less worry or distraction..you can focus on ur goal in life
COns:1) U will feel lonely at times..esp when ur frenz and family are all busy.
2) U feel like something is missing from your life...Frenship love and family love
is nothing compared to finding the love of ur life
3) U do not always know who to pour ur sorrows to or share ur happiness with
4) U do not alway know who to bring to watch fireworks..or watch something
special

Attached: PROS:1) U HAVE ALL THE CONS IN BEING SINGLE TURNED TO positive when u
r attached
CONS: 1) but u also have all the PRos in being single turned to negative when u r
attached haha

I guess thats why there is such a thing as marriage, it kinda combines all together hahha and yese...it wont be "happy ever after" but do note this: if there is love, trust and "compromission" (is there even such a word? haha basically compromise lah) then i guess IT WILL BE happily ever after for ani couple! yupyup..

oh abt myself?? today met up with RBL for dinner at Far East but i didnt eat..jus sat there..n drink..i was so so so wanting to sing KTV loh haha..BUT alas, financial woes got to us all haha ...so went home.,.but KNOW WAT...i didnt bring my keys..so got locked out hahha *zao zhi dao ying gai go KTving) hahah oh well but im home sweet home loh!!

watched " Collateral" with Jia ling today too~~ tot it was progressing to be a nice show but then *peng* e show got more draggy n draggy n even made no sense hahaha..but well aiya ...some shows are jus like tt haha oh also i was INDULGING myself with lotsa CHEESE n NACHOS haha dun normally eat tt much but i dunno why today i jus take, dip, and pop into my mouth hahaha oh well~ hungry i guess hehhe..okok enuff enuff naggy loh!! tatata

LIFE

2004-08-18T18:31:00.000-07:00

hey peps..quite some time neva blog loh~ time to update update~

er lets see...something v paiseh happened yday..tell u e WHOLE story......

one fine day, moi was walkin with my frenz along e biz block concourse when i came across a poster..." bit SPORTS DAY".."please sign up to join us. Badminton, Table Tennis and Volleyball"

haha *cool rite...i can finally pit my skills in BADMINTON loh~~ so i happily take a piece of registration form from e large no. of forms...*cool rite...not many ppl joining e competition..i sure can win liao lah*...

18th Aug 2004--2 p.M.. moi walked towards the sports complex..beaming with enthusiasm...*cant wait to play man*...so i changed out of my formal wear and *voila* happily head to the courts...

*eh....wait...why everyone who join the competition like so unfamilar? n why they alll like wear e same colour clothing wan...why ah???? .....then one guy from TPDB came up, "ehh i didnt know u also from BIT *Biz InfoTech*..which year??"...-_-!!! .."err....year 3".....*face red*..

*for everyone whos not sure which course i am in..IM IN LAW N MGMT..no where near BIT" hahahah...n if u guys see carefully, e poster wrote " BIT sports day.." haha~ die lah die lah..wat to do??
so i continued to play loh but after playing one game, i told them i not from BIT so i shld not be included in e game hahh~ but i must say, the BIT peps are really frenly..organisers are nice n they allowed me to play still haha~ so my embarassment was lightened...

haha oh well~ i learn my lesson to be more cautious.haha dun wan such an incident to happen again hoho~ aniway rite after e badm, headed down for TPDB training n wah~ a bit sian man..so tiring..n my back was injured so cant reli train hard...yup..but feelin better loh~!

aniway on a lower note, got back my CIvil ProCeDure mid sem test and sigh~ damn sad lah..did v badly...tink i shuld have done better..but mayb i jus dun deserve it ba~ sigh oh well tink its alot of crap loh~ so tata

what time is it? Blogging Time!

2004-08-15T20:36:00.000-07:00

hello peps..been awhile since i last blogged...hey anione knows how to add a tag board? apparently ur fren here is a comp nut lah~ so ani kind souls that can tell me how to add??? thank u!

aniway jus to update my life...my hols are officially over loh~ n hmmm was my hols fruiful??? from e way i see it..not reli lah~ i was home for most of e days(quite amazing coz im like a super outdoor person but i guess its been a long time since i jus stayed home n stone..which i guess was wat i did for e past week~~ try to eat dinner at home with family too~ but lately e mood at home is a bit dull...is it coz of the lights?? no tv programmes?? or im jus being too sensitive... hahah~ beats me...

i always tot emotional struggles are way tougher to handle than physical challenges...haha~ its like if physically tough, u just try ur best n let ur aching body rest e whole day~ but if its emotional.. then e onli solution is to SOLVE IT~ no avoiding no escaping....so ppl out there havin ani probs, do face the music n not escape yea??

oh ya jus to add, lately seem a bit *PMS* like..or maybe a bit mood swing haha...which is weird..neva reli experience such a feelin before...oh well~ if onli could jus go back to RBL days at BTCC n TCC..where e onli worries we have was..."what are we having for dinner after bball?" haha...i jus so miss those days....

n to end off before i go do some long over due work,

i never meant to hurt u..
with words ive said or actions i do...
i never meant to cause u trauma..
with all the pain like a soapy drama...

dun be fooled by a person like me..
who brings u nothing but troubles and leaves..
im not e one whose meant to be..
e other half of u n me..

ive been a failure in all ive done..
all i bothered was leisure and fun..
never once did i learn to cherish..
the tots of u..in my mind i relish..

"im with youuuu*

2004-08-07T19:20:00.000-07:00

*take me by the hand, take me somewhere new..i dunno who u r..but im..im with you* ..old song from avril but tink its quite meaningful at tis point of time..

eh ydya was pretty ok~ was quite fun coz my couzinz came over for steamboat n yea~ tho my house quite small, all e couz of my generation all gathered in my room with 2 ULTRA CUTE toddlers! ahha u shld see them man~ they are like super CUTE! haha evberytime i see them..i always smile....kids are quite wonderful eh...*but then again, 2 two little angels nearly torn my room n keyboard apart haha* oh well, they are still cute lah~ hahah

oh n chatted with my couz ,lydia, my closer couz among my relatives...tho. we hardly talk much, there is still tt certain bond there that makes our couzinship so special~ aniway was telling her n updating my life lah~ oh well all e UPS n DOWNS of my rollercoaster ride~ quite interesting~ long time neva talk to her like tt le~ heart to heart...

oh then geraldine( another couz) was talkin abt e DiSC personality test n she said generally, eveyone has a SC (2 personality)personality...but i have a SIC personality...which means that im quite an "undefined" person coz i have got 3 character traits...haha n that makes me quite unpredictable~ ohhh intersting..

btw, in e morning went to NUS to see yiling's rag performance...pretty interesting...quite colourful n had alot of actions..n dancing too haha but i tink e ppl in those houses can be more polite n maybe more courteous lah~ im also tryin to video record rite..no need to push n shove n ask me to move over n over n over ? i dun reli have alot of space to move..oh well, small matter...then talked to yiling's mum n shes telling me alot of her religion~ n i found it v much similar to christianity~ in e sense that her religion n christianity all ask us to seek the HIGH N MIGHTY ONE~ "LAO MU" n GOD respectively...n there are many more similarities...makes me wonder... could they actualli be e same thing?? juz that some where, some how, the words have been misconstrued n thus, there is a clash??? coz i really feel that there is an uncanny similarity b/w both~ ...aniway its been interesting listening...

then got home b4 heading to some NUS singing comp audition~~ i wasnt nervous lah...but then went i stood on e stage, my heart like beat faster n faster...n then worst still..i sang e song too fast..n got one sentence wrong hahah i tink i kinda screewed it up~ hahah but as wat i said, its always a learning experience n look on e bright side....at least u didnt faint on e spot or pee in my pants hahahahha~~ =>

relax...then work again!

2004-08-05T09:27:00.000-07:00

heyO~ tests week over loh..now can hang loose abit..jus went ktving with xiao mei n zacky!! hahah i feel so bad singing sooooo many songs...haha sorry guys! no matter wat...nex time if we go i bring tape n tape my mouth ok~!? hahah thanks for e enjoyable time..

oh n met tis lady to pass her my application form for tis NUS singing competition...8 bucks registratoin fee...*huat ah* hope i will do good in e comp..or maybe jus gain experience lah..dun even know who i am up against haha..so i better jus remain calm, sing then go on with life! hahah..

actualli who reads my blog ah?? i reli do wonder know..haha but one things for sure..siew min does lah..n jia liNG! haha thanks thanks..at least i got some audience not sooo bad haha..after my tests le...i must start to work hard..dun slack too much during e hols..*gambatei*

looking forward

2004-08-04T00:15:00.000-07:00

eh yo~ i was talkin to aaron today~ n well we were just discussing abt him getting a gf haha...he says that in 365 days, he sometimes long for another gal for a few weeks in that 365 days...intersting hor..but other days he jus "live it like that " loh...

wat abt myself ah? i wonder too...

oh well moving on~ keyboard class last sun was intersting~ had fun tryin to master the keys n the different inversions..haha cool cool~ hope to play n sing sooN~ haha but someone once told me i sing better in ktv than unplug...hmmmmm.....oh well~ then it means i must sharpen my unplug techniques haha.. oh n after the tests...finally got time to go ktv loh~ oh wanna ask u guys too.... wat song do u guys tink i suit singing??? hmmm if u know drop me a msg or buzz me can ? thanks jus wanna knowww....

Term Test Nex Weekieeee~~

2004-07-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

Bonjour~ how was ur day?? nice? not so nice? Bad?? nah~ remember ah...Always look on e bright side of LIFE!! and u will realise..."eh..life not so jialat mah" haha~ *winks*

im now in my skool lab printing resources for my term test nex week..i had to print bout 400+ pages worth of info...but know something...i dun even know if i will use it during e exams..haha by e time i flip to e correct section, times up liao~ hur hurr..how sad will tat be eh..

heh aniway pray tt something as horrendous as that WILL NOT happen yea?? ahah..oh im feeling quite alive now..after printing all e notes, i feel v motivated to study for e test n do well...
n like wat a close fren of mine said "life is like a box of chocolate".......eh wait...tts not it haha..wrong channel~

n like wat she said "u gotta force urself lo..if not u tink,ltr get lousy results,, hang in the middle..v agonising lo" hahah..true loh~ iyear 3 liao..why still so slack..time to buck up....hehe yea and U READING THIS..must motivate me too ok~ i wanna end poly on a HIGH..

jus to type more crap...im gonna be taking keyboard classes tml!! for 3 mths..hope to get e basics and then sing n play at e same time..i always tot it was v cool~ haha always like to play those mellow n soothing music..n sing along.."o i jus cant wait for it haha"...

oKie..check back later! ciAoz

Honey im HOME!!

2004-07-29T22:31:00.000-07:00

haha hello~ i handed in my leadership assignment yday lo~ it was quite slip-shody work coz didnt have time to really put in much effort..also got word limit..so how to elaborate??? oh well jus glad its done..but i skipped leadership class yday coz was so sleepy n tired and reli jus no mood~ but i got my warning letter loh~ so i DIE DIE also must attend e rest of leadership classes... but oh well..i tink i skipped class for a good reason~ Bleah..

oh did i tell u my KTV session? iT WAS GREAT!! *lalalla tink tt day my voice was quite "open" so manage to sing with much ease haha..thanks to yiling for e invitation.. tho. there were like 8+strangers in the room...i jus sing loh~ SING sing sing~~ great way to distress man hehe...

bonjour!

2004-07-28T12:36:00.000-07:00

ARlow there~ how have u been?? 0-O silence means good i gather? haha~
Yday was not too shabbY~ had a good time at training and tink i perspired about one gallon of "water" haha...*yea yea gross gross* but tts training mah~i cant help it if my body likes to cry rite? haha

Oh n today i finally get to watch "the Whale riDer"..quite an ordinary show..? nothing reli spectacular but there are things to be learnt..that is 1) whales are v big .....2) whales is spelt W-H-A-L-E-S and 3) whales can SWIM!! whee hahahha..*yea dun start beating me eh...

yupperss...then tonight supposedly going to ktv ....hope everything goes well.. oh btw..im quite a singing freak n frenz around me always gotta tahan my singing..if u ever sit in my car..pls prepare a pair of ear plugs~ haha oh well, i jus cant help myself~ *when e visions around u..bring tears to ur eyes....*

class in progress~

2004-07-27T22:04:00.000-07:00

Wheee....im slackin in class..hoho~ as usual..but hmmm todays not been my day...always wanted to watch "the whale rider" for my leadership proj tts due this thurs..BUT whenever i try to watch it, either the DVD players in e lib are full or I NEVA BRING MY MATRIX card..like TODAY! haha..sigh sigh sigh~ *panic*

somehow after skool reopened, im still tryin to find my footing...trying to get used to skool even after 1mth...v jia lat rite?? hmmm dunno wats wrong with me..is it e "3rd year no mood to study "syndrome?? oh well...but at least i printed out all e relevant notes and nec materials..the onli thing to do now is...STUDY! haha..

Oh but e past few weeks has been pretty eccentric...experienced ups n downs ..like a rollercoaster ..n many things happened too..some reli flattering stuff and some reli depressing stuff haha..oh well.....thats LIFE for ME! hehe...

My 1st posting..but actualli..considered second..know why?? read below

2004-07-26T18:27:00.000-07:00

Hey Yoo~ this is supposedly my first posting...but actualli i had another account jus 2 days back~ but know wat? i forgot e password and the blogger personel neva give me my password..so i decided to get another acct haha
so tis is considered as my second posting..

hmmm btw..my first posting was thankin siew min coz she suggested this blogging thingy to keep in touch with others..so yea~ thanks siew min!

hmmm brb with more stuff once im done! *just hope i dun lose my password again*

I will not quit..I will not give up..

HOLIDAY!

Pay Day!

Whats happening!

so many things... *flustered* yet it doesnt excite me.. *sigh*

What goes up, must come down..

killed 3 times

i dun wanna sleep...

Empty Heart

空洞心

Expectations..

The day before...

The good and the bad Part 2

The Good and the Bad..

Bad Morning!

Ole Ole Ole!!

Composing Class

NS life...

Glad with life

Back to normal life

LWS open house

Ahhhh~

BREAK!!!

Nokia 7370!

Small kids...

Back to work

Regular Updating!

Back to Basics

With regards to previous post...

What is Love to you?

Updates

screwed up performance, missed opportunity

Updates

wazzup

HaPpEnInGs

Updates again!

Belated Bday!

Its Coming!!!

Angels Brought Me Here

Phuket...Here I Come...

It's Over

BGR aside...

Im just a kid

Updates

miracles do exist

GONG XI FA CAI!

updates

emptiness

why?

FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SIP- Silly Idiotic *Pui*..

Maturity

Jo's 21st BDAY PARTY!!!

Another 4 weeks till end of Attachment

Im an IncreDiBle

MiDnItE CyCling

WOW...

The future is in your hands...live it

TodaY!

After first day of SIP

Attachment... SIP!!!!!

Patience

Rehi!

Exams r....OVER!!!

Venue= skool LAB

S-T-U-D-Y

Saturday!!!

*smile*

solo virgin performance at law investiture

Baby Milkshake

Count ur Blessings

C'est moi

Time flies...Horrrr~~

RBL's History

Single--Attached--Married

LIFE

what time is it? Blogging Time!

"im with youuuu*

relax...then work again!

looking forward

so many things... flustered yet it doesnt excite me.. sigh

SIP- Silly Idiotic Pui..

smile

My 1st posting..but actualli..considered second..know why?? read below